6 Months Living in the Brazilian Rain-forest but 1 Night – I Will Never Forget



After getting to a point in my life where I was fed up of the same old town, life and situation, I decided to go and volunteer in the remote Brazil – Atlantic Rain-forest. That was it – 6 months living in the Brazilian rain-forest to help re forest a much needed area in Brazil. So much rich vegetation had been lost over the years so I wanted to do my little bit to give back so off I went.

I have so many stories of the place in which my ‘travel bug’ was born. On this particular night, one of my worst fears (at the time) came true.

zzzzzzzzzzzI had gotten to know a very keen wildlife expert called Chris Knowles who had a huge passion with getting up and close to wildlife. His traveling resume is something I totally aspire to as well as his fearless attitude, determination to get close to anything regardless of danger and the fact that he had unbelievable knowledge of how to handle such dangers. I had already witnessed his  knowledge relating mainly to science, nature and biodiversity. What really impressed me was his lack of fear when handling highly venomous snakes, spiders, scorpions, frogs and an array of dangerous wildlife lurking everywhere in this remote rain-forest of Brazil. 923_101748640437_9460_nI had seen his actions many times during our countless full days trekking in the jungle but doing this at night was going to be a huge step out of my comfort zone.

On this sunny Saturday afternoon, myself and Chris were cruising around (Chris was driving) in a yellow, old school ‘Volkswagen Beetle’. We were in the local village of Guapiacu, when Chris mentioned going up into the remote rain-forest to stay overnight as there was a small hut deep into the forest that some rangers used from time to time. So, I didn’t think twice about any consequences when agreeing immediately.

I was slightly nervous so of course so a little trip to the local shop to get some beers and wine for this Saturday night mission seemed the right thing to do. It wasn’t too long before we got permission to go as far as this ranger’s hut later that night as Chris had been once before but with experienced rangers, so this was surely going to be an experience for the both of us.

We were soon as packed as we could be and made our way to the start of the trek. It was the late afternoon when we started our mission which began near the base of a local mountain. This is the mountain I used to take tourists up on day tours. This was a long days trekking to zzzzzzzthe summit and back. However, this time we were due to go over half way up the mountain and to the point of the waterfall which was around a 2-3 hour hike. We would then chill at the waterfall before taking a right turn and continue for another 2-3 hours to get to the hut.

The main route was not used much so the forest trail was at times uneasy but after the scheduled right turn, there was apparently not much trail at all apart from dense jungle.

Time wasn’t exactly on our side as we wanted to hopefully get to the hut before dark but it was already around 2 pm with the sun due to set from 6 pm. As much as the sun was shining brightly on this beautiful day, the ground was still a little slippery as well as being boggy in places.

With both our bags on our backs, necessities and camera traps, we were on our way. I was soon sweating about 20 minutes in as it was all steep from the start so we sat down just for a few minutes to drink some water. We were in puma territory too which added to the excitement especially as a few days prior a puma had casually strolled across the main forest trail, exactly where we were currently resting. It was on this night we were going to set up 3 x camera traps targeted for catching images and videos of puma. It was not just the puma that could be attracted to out fresh bait near our camera traps as this rain-forest is also home to some dangerous wild cats such as the Jaguar, Leopard, Ocelot and Margay (there could be more).

1824_109034090437_131_nThe abundant wildlife of the Atlantic rain-forest in Brazil (which we were in the heart of) has the 3rd largest biodiversity of wildlife known on earth. With over 2,200 species of mammals, reptiles, birds and amphibians of which over 200 can only be found here which felt amazing. This was another reason why I wanted to volunteer in such a place. It felt like an opportunity of a lifetime to camp so remotely with nothing but a couple of head torches, a sleeping bag each, a floor mat each and over 2,200 species of life in this very rain-forest. Raw, rugged and right in the midst of who knows what that could be crawling, prowling, slithering, walking, flying or climbing. This was exactly how I wanted it to be. zzzzzzzzI just felt the elation of realizing that if I am going to do it properly then do it, and that was precisely what I was doing (despite some obvious nerves).

It was soon time to carry on and it wasn’t too long before we saw the puma’s favorite meal (a sloth) hanging up alone and out of danger in a nearby tree. The sounds of the rain-forest were brilliant and I just knew that at night it would be so loud and like a natural orchestra from all the different species being heard. 1824_109041830437_4225_n

The air was soon getting a little cooler as we trekked higher up with the afternoon slowly coming to an end. We walked passed some lush rain-forest, a stream and plenty more wildlife as we ventured on getting closer to the waterfall. As the photos show we came across 2 x venomous snakes (coral and lancehead pit viper), a toucan and a crazy looking grasshopper.

It was very clear that this forest was teaming with everything and everything, it was just a matter of keeping our eyes peeled and ready. They say the wildlife really does come out at night and we could clearly see this happening right in front of us as the day was drawing to an end.

zzzzzzWe were soon listening to the sounds of water as it sprayed down from the stream above and glided down leaving tiny refreshing particles all around which cooled us down well. It was time to have a bite to eat, a drink of water and to lay under the flowing water fall as the last bit of sunlight reflected onto the free-falling water.

Unfortunately, my right foot was in a lot of pain, was extremely sore and was starting to get swollen, but I was not sure why. It was soon time to get changed again before continuing on as the darkness slowly set in. This was soon to get much worse. The pain was getting more severe but due to the dark, wet and slippery terrain along with the danger of snakes I had to keep my boots on.

The next couple of hours were tough but it was so nice taking my boots off as I sat on my Mat with the sounds of the rain-forest being unbelievably loud. As I sat drinking my local (not great tasting) red wine, I soaked up the environment and felt quite differing emotions in this dark and unknown place. The fact I had no real idea as to what was out there ensured I was regularly quizzing Chris when hearing certain noises, distant howls, rustlings along the forest floor and sounds I never thought existed.

1824_109034055437_7137_nThe hut that was going to be a sleeping option had no door and just a small glance with the head torch was enough to light up all the spider’s webs, crawling army ants, frogs and bugs so it was out in the open for both of us on the mats we each had.

Chris was just so into all the wildlife of all sizes which made sure we both knew we had a few things just in the few square meters of our small camp area (which was tiny but raw). Here are just a few of the creatures we could see next to us:

One of the main reasons we were going camping was to see what creatures we could find in this pristine and untouched part of the wild with just each other for human company. It took plenty of convincing by Chris and a few more wines before I eventually agreed to put my boots, socks, waterproofs and other clothing back on but I soon did. We had occasionally sat in complete darkness just listening to the vibrating forest so we both knew how dark it was but we had a small head torch each so we were now ready to go.

227375_10150612247425438_7180941_nIt was very late in the evening, I was a bit tipsy and my foot was in awful pain but I knew that, not only did we have to go together but I would spoil both of our fun and would waste the main reason of coming if so. On our journey through some of the most dense forest I have ever been through, we soon started to realize exactly what was sharing our close space when Chris found and picked up a snake. I was just amazed he still managed to safely grab it so quick with just his head torch for light. This snake was literally a couple of feet from us.

It made me remember just a few days before when I was inches from stepping on one of the most deadliest snakes in Brazil – the lance-head pit viper when walking through the rain-forest in daylight. Luckily for me, my ranger grabbed me just as I was going to step on it so I soon moved back. A few weeks prior to that incident and among many other similar close calls, I had the infamous ‘Brazilian Coral Snake’ enter my bedroom at night (thank god I wasn’t in there). I got a lovely photo of both occasions, with a third photo of when my ranger taught me how to hold the Lance-head pit viper that I had just nearly stood on. I just can’t help myself, so I asked him keenly if I could hold it but it was such a great ‘face a fear moment’ (see below).

It was actually letting the snake go part that had my heart in my mouth. Just one bite from this snake and being that high up in the mountain with a less than 2 hour time frame to get the lifesaving anti-venom meant that following my instructions was completely vital. It was 2-3 hours to walk to the bottom of the mountain let alone the other hour or so to drive to hospital dependent on traffic so there was no room for error. When given such instructions in this in particular circumstance, I felt so naturally focused that my mind took over and followed every instruction fully, despite my adrenaline fueled heartbeat. This highly venomous snake soon slithered off calmly with myself left buzzing with excitement from that point.

Anyway, after Chris had his fun with the snake during our night walk, he let it slither off back into the forest. Every step was still such a mission for me as I had no clue what was wrong with my foot but it obviously wasn’t good. The slippery forest floor, occasional streams, rocks and constant alertness to my path and footing was doing my nut. One of the most memorable moments of my life was still to come in an unexpected way but there was so much life still all around us. Here are some photos from what we saw on this little midnight adventure which include an amazing photo of an owl above us, frogs, spiders, a strange bug and another snake. Many eyes were on us that night but they made for some great photos. It is amazing what could be seen out here when your in total darkness (apart from your head torches).

The constant questions I was asking Chris was engaging my interest which helped me try not to think about my foot. I learnt so much that night but I was soon to have a piece of knowledge that I will never forget.

We would often turn our head torches off to not only soak up the loud differing sounds but Chris also said there would be more chances of getting close ups of spiders. Just knowing we were so remote, the darkness, the sound of the breeze gently gliding through the canopy above and that fresh scent of pure nature and wildlife was so unforgettable.

Little was I to know that I was just about to have a close encounter with a creature I have always been scared of. I can remember this like it was yesterday and the information that followed makes me cringe to this day. So, I was stood a few meters from Chris with both of us listening to the different noises as Chris would usually tell me which noise belonged to which bug, bird, creature, monkey, mammal, lizard, frog or whatever else was around.

I stood in pitch darkness when all of a sudden I felt something land on my right shoulder. I instantly reacted by brushing it off and screamed like a girl before telling Chris to put his head light on so I could check my shoulder. Whatever it was, it had jumped or fell on me and it was not small at all. Chris checked as did I that there was now nothing on my shoulder. He and I checked the area after I told him where I had swiped my shoulder towards.

Then, just like that, we both caught eyes with my culprit. It was one of the biggest spiders I had ever seen and the fangs, eyes and huge hairy body was enough to make me feel sick. I have a few things in my life that I just can’t help but be afraid of and unfortunately, no matter how hard I try – spiders are without doubt, one of them.


This spider was much bigger than the span of my open hand and I was honestly so shocked that this monster had just been on my shoulder. Once Chris had taken this photo of him, he began to explain why this spider had jumped on my shoulder, how he kills his prey, why he was above me and what type of spider he is.

As we took a slow walk back to our camp, Chris explained what had happened. At first he mentioned the ‘Brazilian Wandering Spider’ but I think he was joking as we both knew that not only could this spider could be found exactly here but it is the most deadliest spider in the world. The fact that this spider had actively jumped from a tree meant it was not the feared Brazilian Wandering Spider which hunts from the forest floor and not from trees.

The wandering spider is the only spider known to man to give it’s male human victim an erection. This no is no ordinary erection either. It is a good 4-hour long agonizing one that is said to be excruciating. This is also if you are not killed by that same bite as on one occasion, a single wandering spider killed 2 children. As bad as it is at least if you are in shock when you are rushed to hospital in Brazil and you can just say spider then I am certain you will get treated immediately. An erection poking from your trousers would be such an obvious clue so despite the pain, at least the wandering spider will be the clear culprit so you can get the rapid anti-venom you need. The jokes on this really could go on forever. If this wasn’t more of a story through experience then there would be some but feel free to share any jokes in the comments section.

Back to the story. The Brazilian Huntsman Spider lives up to his name as he catches his prey through detecting warmth (warm blood) beneath him. When he feels that he can strike from above on his warm blooded target, he then times his jump accordingly before then penetrating his huge fangs into the prey. In this case, the warm prey was me – my right shoulder. The Brazilian huntsman are also known for penetrating their fangs so quickly after landing on their prey. Lucky for me, my instant reaction to swipe my shoulder prevented me from a painful right shoulder to go with my painful right foot. The bite of a Brazilian huntsman can also be very painful and can last for days.

All in all though, it is a great story looking back and I am just glad I swiped him aside. I never forget the feel of him as I instantly swiped my shoulder and am glad further that I didn’t swipe near his fangs as that bite to my hand or fingers would have hurt. I was very impressed with such a hunting tactic especially in such a remote place but then that is certainly biodiversity for you and that evening proved to be one of the best of my life.

I love true nature that is up close, real and raw and hunting tactics is all part of it so being prey even just for a split second was a great occasion. Being prey to a Huntsman would be much more satisfying than a jaguar or leopard but the night wasn’t over. 227183_1074187767610_3355_nHowever, it is a large forest so we would be really lucky to even see a footprint of a leopard or jaguar let alone seeing one. Chris just told me to act big if we do see one as they may just run off anyway but a photo would be one to treasure. We had camera traps for that. I soon changed clothes again, before setting the last camera trap with Chris not too far from our camp.

We were soon back and just laid chatting along with appreciating such strange but loud sounds. My senses were certainly heightened that night as some of the rustling in and around the forest floor was so loud that my imagination was going wild. I just kept thinking ‘what if’? – ‘what if it is a big cat’? as the reality was that there could be one near us especially as they hunt mainly at night and we were so deep into the forest too. I just hoped that the smell of mosquito repellent may not be so appetizing for a large cat.

These noises happened on and off all night and I was woken up with the nearby noises quite a few times. There was so much action around us that night but I will never know what was near us but there was plenty going on that’s for sure.

It was soon morning and time to get up. That fresh feeling of waking up in the open air is really hard to beat and I still swear that this is how we all should live. Who needs an enclosed room, a roof and the same old circulating air. We had a bite to eat before washing at a nearby stream and then soon heading off. By this time my foot was hurting so bad. As I knew Chris wanted to take photos, look for snakes, monkeys, spiders and whatever else, I decided to go off ahead as all I wanted to do was get to the waterfall so I could swim and soak my foot as it was now dark blue, swollen and had horrible patches all over that just looked disgusting.

There was still time for me to have yet another close up experience but this time I did not see exactly what it was. I was about an hour into my trek when I really needed a s**t. I had tried to hold it in but it was now impossible so I found a place that was a little bit open near a rock but with plenty of leaves around to use. I have never done a bush s**t before so it was another experience. The problem came when I was going for my bush s**t that I felt uneasy. I then saw something move several meters from me but the forest floor was too dense over there but I hated the feeling I had and just wanted to get out of there, so I did. I soon arrived at the waterfall again and swam in the small pool near that bottom in an attempt to heal my foot.

I waited for about an hour for Chris but he did eventually turn up and he was buzzing. He had found one of the biggest (if not the biggest) tiger snake of his time and probably in the area. He was so excited as was I and I couldn’t wait to see his photos. I told him about my bush s**t and laughed off the fact that if he saw and grabbed this huge snake then I must have walked straight passed it or even been near it when I done my bush s**t.

He then explained the exact area that I had stopped at including the opening, nearby rock, dense forest on one side with it being more open on the other side. Suddenly, I remembered the movement I had seen as well as my really awful feeling teamed with the fact I wanted to get out of there so quick at the time. I was eagerly anticipating seeing his main photo as he mentioned that he had placed his camera down to get the perfect shot and then timed a beautiful photo. It was explained to me as if he had set the camera on the small pieces of dry grass and straw that were about a meter from my bush s**t. I had to see it to believe it as it just felt far too coincidental. Well, this one photo was to catch my attention more than anything imaginable.


When Chris then went on to mention exactly where it was, I then realized this was the exact reason I got out of there so quick. I had already had a tiger snake jump out at me lower down the mountain as well as having another one puff up near my face from a bunker within a meter from me but if I had been not paying attention or went for a bush s**t a meter or two over, I could have had a nasty bite or two, that’s for certain. Chris also told me how aggressive this tiger snake was and that he was surprised it didn’t attack. Total respect for Chris for sensing the snake, spotting it and then grabbing it as he was just so vigilant and could sniff out snakes or other stuff with ease.

We joked about him not stepping in or seeing my b**h shit. It was also very interesting that this snake had given us both a sense that something was lurking nearby. ze

I soon forgave him for taking so long before jumping back into then fresh water for one more soak before we planned to venture back down the mountain. It felt great swimming in such natural, pure and fresh mountain water but there would still be a few more things to see on the way back. As we both continued it was nice to be climbing downhill opposed to uphill and I just knew that sooner or later I could stop, sit and rest properly so I could take care of my foot as it was becoming really concerning. It freaked Chris out when I showed him back when I was swimming but it was soon to get worse.

zaIt wasn’t too long before we were confronted by another tiger snake but this time it was smaller and not quite as aggressive as the one that me and Chris had experienced in differing ways.  Chris had pointed out so many birds I just couldn’t keep up and soon enough we were getting close to sitting back inside the yellow Volkswagen Beetle. Just as I was thinking about the warm food, rest, hot shower and just being in comfort I noticed a snake of my own. It was a small green snake which was sliding along just in front of me as I walked so I asked Chris if it was venomous. Chris acknowledged that it wasn’t so I had my first attempt of grabbing a wild moving snake, so I did exactly that. It was only a baby so I soon put it down before his mother appeared.



Road to home

After a nice country drive home through this lush, rich, green and beautiful part of the world it was finally back to our voluntary organisation where we could eat, drink and rest.

This is a photo I took just outside my room (left photo below) which shows the clear track that led to the wetlands (right photo below) about 80 meters from my room.

It really was an eventful afternoon, evening, night and day and one which I will never forget. When parts of the earth are left untouched the true wildlife can thrive in abundance and if your lucky, keep your eyes peeled and your ears open then they can and will give you experiences that are often so great they are hard to explain.

As for my foot I had the start of what the doctor described as ‘trench foot’ on my left foot and worse ‘trench foot’ on my right. I was off work for a few days as I could hardly walk on my right foot which had swollen, blistered with the blueness turning to red soon healed. I finally got both feet back to normal but my right foot looked disgusting at the time but it was all part of the overall experience.

Here are some more photos of the rest of my time in Brazil


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Annapurna Circuit – Pushing Every Limit Imaginable – World Records – Survival Story – ABC News Interview

Crushing comfort zones, exceeding capabilities and staring death in the face were far from my original plan when I attempted to complete the 10-16-day Annapurna circuit in the Himalayas of Nepal in late 2016. 14907163_10209666487911671_4251894771699293831_n


Physical injury, illness, mental battles, deep emotions, altitude sickness, desperation and dangerous situations were all soon to be part of my reality. Coming out of the other side was not only life-changing but my local guide who met these extremities with me made for a great life-long friendship.14705853_10209666482991548_7764815673922938425_n

It all started with an impulsive decision to leave the remote Aboriginal Community of Lajamanu in the remote desert of Australia that I was working in to then challenge myself with the mammoth 10-16-day Annapurna circuit trek.

The reasons for this were purely fuelled from deep emotions, heartache, loss, bullying, victimisation and an overall mindset which pushed me to my limit. This left me with one decision which was to smash through my emotions by doing something epic or carry on eating myself up with my desperate frame of mind. The actual reasons that made me decide to do this trek in a spontaneous last-minute decision will be detailed in my third novel and will be a truly hard-hitting read that’s for certain.

I never imagined for a second that I would test everything I had by completing the 10-16-day trek in 4 days and 7 hours but that is precisely what happened. After travelling for several hours on one of the world’s most dangerous roads whilst being huddled together with other people in jeeps, we arrived at the start of the trek with just a night’s sleep left before starting our climb. 14611039_10209666489231704_3935059062010454422_n (1)

On day 1 of this huge trek and after a few heavy nights of drinking, I woke up in a small place called Tharapani. I was hungover and not feeling my best whatsoever as I gripped my 22kg backpack before lifting it onto my back. With my 8kg bag on my front and despite the crisp alpine weather, I was sweating so much. We headed on our 18km trek to a mountain village called Chame. With just myself and Ram (my mountain guide) climbing on our first day, I never could have imagined what was to come next as we sat down for lunch a few hours later.

14717091_10209666482951547_3532445049543358697_n (1)The views were simply stunning, and I was soon kicking around one of the two small footballs I had brought along with me. I wanted to break a total of at least four world records which included certain props such as a football as well as a spare one (just in case). I also wanted to play football with local village kids along the way.

However, my upbeat mood soon changed as I was soon left with agonising pain in my stomach. It was clear that I now had food poisoning from the local and national dish called dahl baht. 14581398_10209666484031574_7537069253985541632_nThe pain was crippling, and I was also dizzy, as unfortunately for me I was now also getting altitude sickness. I could feel my left heel digging into my shoe as I had left everything last minute, so I just had my Nike shoes I wear for the gym. I wanted light footwear which was to prove a very stupid mistake indeed and there was no going back now unless I wanted to give up.

The trek after lunch was a further assent to the small village of Chame which was so incredibly difficult as my head was pounding, stomach in agony and I just wanted to lie down. Stood at an altitude of 2,650 metres, we finally got to the mountain village of Chame, so I sat in the small cooking area with the host family, so I could warm up as I was not in a good way. 14907581_10209666488151677_2779313265836193788_nThe little girl hiding behind her mummy playing hide and seek with me was so sweet and it briefly took my mind off how I felt.

I couldn’t eat anything as it just made me feel sick, so I forced myself to drink hot lemon, honey and ginger. The last thing I wanted to do was have an ice-cold bucket wash, but it had to be done and more importantly I had an open blister to clean on my left heal. Originally, I wanted to surpass Chame that evening, but this was before my food poisoning, blister, altitude sickness and throbbing headaches.

I never forget this night. I went to bed early as I could hardly move as I just laid in bed. I tried to drink the locally recommended rice whisky but it just made everything so much worse. I was having severe hot and cold sweats, muscle cramps, shooting pains through my stomach and at times I felt the pressure on my head that bad it was penetrating every part of me. Ram was checking up on me and was severely worried as I couldn’t even talk clearly, move properly, eat or drink and I was also shaking. I tried eating as the local Nepalese cooked up a nice meal but I just couldn’t.14717091_10209666488271680_3959442406509673744_n

There were many times during this trek I had moments where I questioned giving up but something very deep down inside of me was so incredibly stubborn, defiant and fearless to the fact that I can overcome it. This was the very first instance of such an occurrence.

The truth behind my defiance was a lot deeper than I first thought. My determination to complete this trek regardless of any potential challenge was relentless. My emotional state was that bad due to some severely personal matters that crushed me that I was just not going to stop. It was like I had to walk it out of my head, push myself to the extreme and more importantly – I felt that coming out of the other side would be the only way.

I could only really describe my sleep that night as utterly horrid as I was constantly forgetting where I was, dripping with sweat and overall, I felt like I was in a small confined bubble to which I could not escape. I kept telling myself that this was just my body adjusting to such altitudes and that it will somehow pass. I also felt that this was my challenge and that this was meant to be this way. The depth inside of me that drove me to be positive was just like I knew deep down inside of me that I would be ok.

So, it was soon time to get up on day 2. I had to use ice cold water again to clean my wound as it was quite deep. I made myself eat half a bowl of muesli with hot milk as I knew I had to eat. Once we were set to leave, I put my 22kg backpack on and felt my left shoulder tear. I dropped my bag instantly as I felt the agonising pain of a ripped muscle in my shoulder. This really was fight or flight, sink or swim, fail or succeed but I still just would not budge.

I went to the local clinic and paid to privately see a nurse, so I could continue as soon as possible. She checked my wound, my shoulder as well as how I was feeling and said to me that I should not continue this trek. I knew she had a point and climbing up to 5,416 metres altitude was a test for anyone, so I would be pushing it for sure.

I am a firm believer that if you start something then you need to finish and that if you set your mind to achieve this you will achieve it regardless of hurdles. This nurse soon cleaned and bandaged my open wound. I then asked for iodine, spare bandages, cream and a heat pack and I will sort the rest, no worries so we were soon on our way again.

Ram was concerned and was constantly asking me questions, but I just kept saying I am fine and that I will do the walk with no problems at all. From this very point, I decided that I will keep completely ahead of the game with taking meds, vitamins, electrolytes, rest when necessary and prevent infection or further injury.

14900406_10209666492191778_5765866356656687662_nThis day in particular was a very emotional day for me which felt like a huge combination of lack of sleep, personal emotions and also physical pain. One thing about this trek though was the ever-changing views that were so unbelievably breathtaking that it was making my emotions become so much more intense. It was like walking through postcard after postcard which felt so surreal. We had the occasional stop as my energy was so depleted, but the stops were relatively short as I could feel we could skip the next two scheduled stopovers to which we did. Ram was determined not to continue but I convinced him otherwise as I just couldn’t see the point of stopping when it is still sunlight.

I soon had a moment to myself where I laid down, shut my eyes and told myself that I was going to do this.

14732293_10209666486951647_8631119203940562275_nWe had covered massive distances and arrived at our next mountain village called Humde in the late hours of the afternoon. There was something so addictive about not stopping that I felt possessed with such deep determination to keep pushing myself.

I now had an open wound on both heels, so I was certainly ready for a rest for the night. The mountain tea houses that we stayed at were all nice, cosy and offered great food and drinks. They were obviously basic though, so it was soon another ice cold full body wash, a clean up of my wounds, heat pack on my shoulder before sitting down for a fresh ginger, honey and lemon drink. The walls in the bedrooms were always so thin, so my sleep was not good at all as I could hear every footstep, every voice and all the other noises kept me awake or even vibrated through my room.

Day 3 was another big day. It started with sheer agony as I put my shoes on after another ice bucket wash. We were scheduled to spend 2 nights in Manang (altitude of 3,519 metres) to acclimatize but again, I just didn’t want to stop. This took a lot of convincing as Ram strongly suggested stopping but it was like 2pm so I wanted to carry on going until dark. 14642168_10209666488591688_2864514951651644391_nRam reluctantly agreed, and he appeared to understand my passion, so we continued. This was the day I got my appetite back, so I sat having lunch with yet another breathtaking view.

Again, we just kept going and going but this time we arrived at our new destination of Yak Kharka in the early hours of the evening, so it was almost dark. I was severely tired, but I felt like I had broken through a barrier which was great.

Now, day 4 was the ultimate day that both myself and Ram will never ever forget and for good reasons. It may sound crazy paying so much money for a trek just to rush it but for me, trekking for a whole day rather than just several hours just to spend overextended time in each village seemed pointless. Not only did I want the biggest challenge of my life but to maximise the trek scenically too by resting along the way, leaving early and arriving to villages late. Through word of mouth, I knew that none of the guides had heard of anyone completing the 10-16-day trek in half the time let alone less so I could feel this challenge overpower me with adrenalin, focus and determination.

I was up at 5am but despite the tiredness, I felt the most overwhelming of emotions that we should leave early and continue as far as we physically can. Little did I realise that this would be the most powerful, testing and extreme day I have yet to live through.

As I got up, I realised that both my heels were in a bad way. I knew it was going to be a long day so having an ice cold full body wash in freezing temperatures was not ideal, but it was incredibly necessary. The rashes on my inner thighs felt like they were on fire as the freezing water penetrated my sore red skin. It took me nearly 2 hours just to wash, rebandage my heels and sort myself ready to continue. It was as if I was in slow motion as everything I done was plagued with fatigue, aching muscles, pain and feeling light headed due to the high altitude. I have had bad circulation in my fingers and toes for several years now so even the gloves I had on didn’t stop the numbness which slowed me down more.

Another make or break moment for me was when it was time to put my Nike shoes on as both my feet were badly swollen. This was unbelievably agonising. I just had to suck up the pain and get on with it. My theory was – no pain, no gain. I had already made it to the point which is recommended day 7-10 and this was the early hours of day 4 so as hard as it felt, progress was certainly being made.

The views were simply amazing but the feeling when I put pressure on either foot was so excruciating as was lifting my 30kg of baggage as my shoulder was still hurting bad. 14600903_10209666483751567_3461284304794274886_nAs we set off after my muesli and hot milk, we made our way very slowly as I kept stopping as the pain was becoming too much for me. I was very emotional, teary and passionate all at once as I took each step slowly but surely. The mix of emotions was like nothing I had ever felt before and being alone, away from friends and family under these conditions in such remoteness was weighing my mind down so much.

The views were just so spectacular that I had wave after wave of emotions I didn’t know I had inside of me. I was flowing through waves of excitement, pain, happiness, reluctance, intrigue, but also being proud of myself. A challenge soon popped up where I was offered a horse and a donkey by locals as either the horse or donkey could carry me the rest of the way. As much as I considered it, it was so hard walking away from such an opportunity. I would have been a massive failure if I decided to take the easy option.

Then – breaking point, just like that. I became incredibly emotional with the tears running down my face as I questioned everything. 14906870_10209666489711716_1299114469743124075_nThis was the moment that changed it all for me. I asked Ram to please go ahead as I needed time to myself. I took my bags off before standing on this rope bridge. I asked Ram to please give me 10 minutes alone, so Ram stood a little way behind me as I stood on the rope bridge. I stood looking out at the dramatic views and just burst into tears with the thought of giving up, failing and not doing what I set out to do. My deep sadness of my personal life at present was also literally crushing me on that bridge but man it felt good to just let it all out. I cried so hard and my mind was just going from one emotion to the next and so on. It was like flicking through a book with each page holding different emotions and they just filled me with tears that were now pouring so hard as I wept more and more.

Then, it happened, the defining moment. This was the moment where I had serious words with myself about not giving up. The pain in both feet, left shoulder, severe cramp in my right foot, emotional hurt regarding my life and the power to not give up was relentless and so powerful that it had gripped every atom in my body and mind. The sheer determination I had from this very point was unstoppable. Every tear, emotion, thought and feeling I let out on that bridge was the start of a surge of ruthless intent to not only complete this trek but I was determined to push through any limits with maximum conviction.

There were soon some seriously tough parts where we had to trek through and the pressure on my feet, back, shoulders and legs were unbelievable as was seeing the huge trek and mountains we had yet to come. We eventually got to a stop off where others had stopped on a mountain side shop which was just beautiful as well as being amazing for me to feel the weight of 30kg be released from my back.

14570460_10209666491671765_2940644520508004324_nWhen I tried cleaning my wounds, I was approached by a nurse from the UK who expressed her concerns with me continuing. When I said I want to get to high camp today, she advised against it but as stubborn as I am combined with my determination there was no way anyone would stop me. We did have a great chat and she cleaned up my two open heal wounds very well before we continued again.

After a gruelling climb to Thorong Phedi (altitude of 4,450 metres), I felt completely done in. We soon sat with a group of trekkers who were on day 11 from Tharapani, so they were completely amazed that I was on day 4 after leaving from the same place. They honestly thought I was a professional athlete to which I explained that I just want to push myself to the limit. They soon wished me luck as I wanted to push on further and get up to high camp which was another gruelling 2-3 hour hike up to the last point before reaching the high altitude pass of Thorong – La Pass at a massive 5,416 metres altitude.

This whole experience was epic as was the views, tranquillity, solitude and natural beauty but my body, mind and determination to get up and over the 5,416 metres pass was extremely powerful.

After the 2-3 hour trek up to high camp (the last stop before the 5,416 pass) Ram was adamant that we should stay here and continue in the morning. The reality was that everyone who treks here wakes up in the extreme early hours of the morning, so they can reach the pass at sunset. This is known as the only safe way to do it as the wind is calmer, the visibility at the pass is better and you also need the full day to ensure you get over the pass and have plenty of daylight hours to reach the next village called Muktinath.14656418_10209666485351607_3326914740087751870_n (1)

I knew the incredibly morbid stats of attempting the pass as there have been so many deaths, rescues, lost limbs, injury, illnesses and many other horrific stories of altitude sickness but I just didn’t seem bothered. It was like I knew deep down that this was my chance to push myself to the absolute extreme and that no matter how far I push myself, I just knew I would be ok. This was soon to change as this theory was soon to be tested in the harshest of ways.

With the time being around 2:15pm and the hardest part of the walk yet – we were still looking at an excruciating 3 hour climb to the pass. There had been nothing easy today in regard to altitude, steepness, vast distance and injury but I just wanted more. When I mentioned to Ram that I wanted to get to the pass today and to get to Muktinath he just laughed at me and looked at me as if I was crazy. I was totally crazy, but I just needed to push myself so bad and get to the other side of all that was hurting me – it was like I was addicted to not stopping.

Ram did not want to accept anything from me, but I just became more and more desperate, convincing and determined. He asked for advice from the locals there but they all agreed that we should not be attempting it now. The feedback I got was that I am not a professional climber or athlete, I already looked tired, I had been trekking at high and rising altitudes with no breaks or days to acclimatize the overall suggestion was that I could die up there.

I took this on board but the burning desire to continue had gripped me stronger than any drug could. I wanted to do this trek in record time, have more rest days after due to the speed of this trek and I could live in the know that I pushed myself beyond any limits. This was very, very stupid but I just knew I could do it. Ram was ok with attempting it himself as he had done this trek hundreds of times but never as quick as I wanted to do it, so he worried about me. The more I found out from locals that nobody had ever done it this quick, the more I wanted to do it.

14906905_10209666490471735_8937635253804550190_nWe were soon on our way and this is where it all got so intense, but the burning determination made me focus on mind over matter. I had been taking regular medicine, vitamins, adequate water and electrolytes so I was taking this very seriously but man, I was so hungry with doing what I set out to do.

As we continued up, it slowly started to feel like I was in this strange dream which had slowed down time so much that is was totally surreal. The temperature was in the minuses, I was wrapped up with so many layers, my water was partially frozen, and my fingers and toes numb. I slumped a few times as just feeling the 30kg weight off my back even for several seconds was enough to give me more courage to continue. I remember at this point seeing these tiny blue dots in front of me which kind of let me know that I need to be climbing back down the other side as soon as possible. My altitude sickness was now in its prime with my head throbbing, my vision blurred and in general I was feeling exhausted. I kept repeating to myself – one foot in front of the other and step by step. I couldn’t stop too much as we would already be reaching the pass near sunset so getting there at dark was an absolute no. I also had my Guinness World Records to do at the pass, so I needed sunlight.

The mental and physical fatigue by this point was also relentless but it was completely my fault as I still just wanted to get to the other side of such extremities and I was certainly doing that. In my head, I could not really imagine or visualise anything apart from reaching the 5,416-metre pass, get my records done at the top and then it would just be an easy cruise back down the other side. These overly eager, naive and light-headed thoughts would certainly help get me to the top but also prove to be such a deep learning curve with understanding the severity of the situation I was in.

14639760_10209666482071525_4009072178325362211_nRam was also struggling but not too much. He was concerned about me. We slowly but surely kept taking each step as they come and when we eventually reached the pass I could feel my iced cold tears run down my face. It is almost impossible to explain such emotions as they are fueled so powerfully with joy, pain, achievement and in general, emotions that I didn’t even know could go through me.

14650270_10209666485951622_6901357364772678898_n The photo to the left just represents me thinking so much about so much. At the top, I slumped on a small wooden bench and the feeling of sheer elation as I took both bags off was hard to describe but despite my internal and external issues, I just felt such great happiness. It was getting dark, so I needed to prepare my head torch as did Ram, so we were set for the journey back down such high levels of altitude. 14604855_10209666486631639_1534971537191624530_nI then stood up, tried sucking the water from the ice that it mainly consisted of and prepared for the world record attempts.  The items I had was a kite, a football and just myself for potentially another two records which involved certain exercises at such a high altitude.

This was a test in itself. There was now a snow storm. Trying to take my gloves off, configure my phone, make the attempts, be interviewed on camera by Ram and ensure I had comfortably got the correct evidence for each record was beyond tough. Knowing that we would then be climbing back down was what drove me as coming back down from this altitude and right now was a must. Before I put my bags and gear back on I wanted to do something a little different. I didn’t need the second football anymore, so I kicked it off the nearest edge I could see, and it actually felt great.

Once my bags and gear were back on and Ram was ready, we set off to finally descend after nearly four days of ascending. The snow storm was much more intense now too which we were both praying would pass but it wasn’t. We both just continued whilst being fully covered from head to toe with just our eyes showing.

As we continued, the sky became dark and the overpowering sense of loneliness, surviving and getting safe we firmly in my reality. I could slowly feel my throbbing head settle slightly but I soon had another problem that I never even thought of. My knees were taking so much pressure from no now hiking downhill. The combination of the 30kg weight, downhill force and physical fatigue were getting extremely difficult. About an hour and a half in, I slumped again over a rock and soon laid down just to give my body a brief break. Ram agreed that he would take my 22kg back pack, so I continued with my smaller 8 kg back pack. I was so grateful to Ram and still promised him that we will get to the next village. He predicted another 2 – 4 hours which was so hard to hear.


The amount of times I spoke to myself was also far from expected but I needed to push myself, so I kept telling myself that this would be ok. It is just a very intense learning curve. I also felt so lucky to have Ram who had not only experienced this trail so many times, but I knew he could do it fine, so I just had to keep up.

Rams head torch had already broken so we were now relying on mine to guide us down the extremely narrow terrain with sheer drops either side of us. Thinking back and as terrible as it sounds, I wanted a test and man did I just have the biggest test of my life with the goal now just to survive.

I soon had my head torch stop working and at this point we were both panicked. Ram was having to concentrate on staying on the correct route as the darkness, fallen snow and ruthless snow and hail made the path extremely difficult to see. When my head torch went out, I soon realised that it would be impossible to navigate in the dark. In panic mode with my brain somehow spinning with option to survive I had an idea. The only option was to use our phones as light and both of us were not at a high battery level.

My phone was a nightmare, so we had to film from Ram’s phone whilst using the camera light as our guidance light. Not only was it still hard to see, keep close together and stay safe but the video recording light would go off after every 40-50 seconds. This was so dangerous with the tight bends, long drops, slippery parts and darkness as using total vigilance was now a life or death tool.

I can only explain the next 2 and a half hours of penetrating hell as every single part of my physical, emotional, mental and survival instinct was under the most ultimate of resistance. We were now taking each step so carefully and preparing for when the light would go out as one false move could be game over.

The ice-cold winds were excruciatingly painful on all parts of my body especially my face, hands and feet. The biggest test was soon upon me as my knees began to give way. I started sliding on my backside for some time as I could not bare to walk. I had many occasions where I asked Ram to leave me here as I can’t continue. Ram made it clear that I would be dead, frozen and buried under snow in just a few hours if I don’t keep moving.

The mental and physical battles were beyond any of the stupidly naïve extremities I had perceived I may go through. Questioning whether to lie down and die was a very real thought and one that I could not think around if I tried. I soon became angry, frustrated, emotional and my life was flashing passed me as I began to convince myself that I will die right here on this mountain. People have died just doing the day route over the pass during the day and with none of the adverse conditions we were facing so what gave me the right to survive? Doing this well known and intense one day trek at night and as part of a 3-day trek which should take 3 days but attempting it in just 1 day was kind of crazy.

Me and Ram began arguing as he kept pushing me to go faster due to the time. I found it so hard to go faster but also to understand why he was pushing me to do so when I felt I had nothing left. My theory was to take it slow – get to Muktinath alive rather than rushing it and not being able to continue so we certainly had some raised words between one another.

I soon had to stop so I did. I took my bag off, laid on a rock and just went into this surreal zone where I went so deep into my head I convinced myself I could and will do this. I was crying, emotional and desperate for anything rather than being in this freezing, dark and terrifying place.

With both my phone and Ram’s phone being so temperamental, we realised that the pressure and realisation of survival was being lessened. I remember thinking that I asked for this, so I got what I deserved, yet at the back of my mind I kept holding onto the positive thoughts that I know myself, my mind and my body and I will live to not only tell the story but to learn from it.

With my face, hands and feet painfully numb, I was worrying about hyperthermia so despite how much it hurt I tried desperately not to stop. It was now 7:30pm and Ram said he thinks that we are not far from a small homestay just before Muktinath. From this point on we were shouting out for help on regular occasions in the hope that someone may hear us. He was unsure whether they would be open. I made it clear that we would need to break in. Ram warned me of being arrested in the morning. In a life and death situation I know the choice that I firmly made, and Ram soon understood this.

We continued to follow each other closely whilst preparing for when the light regularly went out, so we didn’t step off the edge and just slowly made progress. I am not usually one to pray but I looked up to the dark skies and prayed many times that evening. I always know that so many people would just think I asked for it and that I am crazy. I cannot express highly enough how that deep down somewhere inside of me, it was like I knew that regardless of my doubts (which are only natural) that I will survive. I also knew that Ram was struggling. I had no doubt in Ram making it but by this point we were really pushing each other with every step. I was telling him how it will feel when we are in the warm and how we will laugh about this one day. He was also motivating me by making me laugh. He said in all his years of guiding people on mountains he had never pushed himself to such extremes and that I am far too stubborn. I knew this but these little breaks via humour, optimism and regular shouting out for help were probably helping us a lot more than we realised.

At 8:30pm – the desperation was quite severe but one of the most amazing things was about to happen. We could see a tiny light in the distance. By now I could feel this warm fuzzy feeling penetrate through my body. It was a bit like we were stranded in the middle of the ocean and had then seen a boat – it was the best feeling ever. However, this light did not mean safety, but we continued to yell but it was much further in the distance than we thought.

As we got closer to the light and had continued shouting I saw another light move so we both yelled so loud with our voices that could hardly speak let alone shout. Then – we heard a voice shout back. This felt like heaven on earth. We still had a steep slope to our left and had to follow the slope around to what looked like a small group of houses. There was a local man and woman calling out to us whilst slowly walking around to us in the distance. As they neared, I had such emotional, yet happy tears and I can only really explain it as feeling like a spiritual moment as I knew that we were going to be safe. By this point, I could hardly walk and was so desperate for warmth. The man soon grabbed my arm and put it around him as he guided me with him. Ram walked with the woman and we slowly walked to their small hut.

They spoke little English, so Ram translated everything back to me. They were so shocked that we had trekked from Yak Kharka to here in one day. They soon had the fire going as me and Ram sat on a small wooden bench talking about what we had just done. We were so happy. We hugged, shook hands and made it clear that we were friends for life. I thanked him for putting up with me and he thanked me for not giving up.

My face was blue, I couldn’t bare to take any clothing, shoes or gloves off. My body was in the worst state I think it has ever been in. Now, I hadn’t exactly eaten much for a few days, but my body was craven something. The nice local Nepalese lady said she can cook me anything I wanted but I didn’t want anything at all. For some unknown reason I suddenly had a huge craving for cheesy mashed potato. I asked if this was possible to which it was, so she began peeling potatoes, grating cheese and began cooking this for me. I soon sat fully layered including an undercoat and main coat with also a blanket around me as I was cold, shaking and numb. I asked for a large beer and I have to say that despite the circumstances, that beer tasted absolutely amazing and went to my head immediately. I asked Ram the altitude firstly as I had not been drinking at high altitude as I had already experienced how it can negatively affect your head at such altitudes. We were at around 3,700 metres altitude which was a good 1,700 metres lower than the pass, so I decided to have the one beer before going to bed.

I had soon drunk that beer, so I ordered one more. Sitting there with my steaming cheesy mashed potato and iced cold beer was probably not the most sensible of scenarios but it felt perfect to me. It was such celebratory moment with massive reflection taking place with both me and Ram. We celebrated life, intense challenges, survival and ultimate determination. I felt like I could and would achieve anything now. I have always believed that if you put your mind to anything then you can get it and this kind of proved that with the greatest of intensity.

We had been trekking for around 16 hours that day with it either being an excruciating uphill challenge or at times, an even worse downhill challenge. The Nepalese couple knew all the statistics of people that had been killed, rescued, injured or had amputations and the statistics shocked me massively. The main stats were that in the past year there had been over 43 deaths from trekkers attempting the pass in the one day, hundreds of rescues and plenty of lost limbs due to frostbite as well as countless accounts of hyperthermia. I was generally worried about hyperthermia which is exactly why I was not willing to take off any layers of clothing. I soon went to bed fully clothed in the 3 plus layers I was in as well as being fully zipped up in my sleeping bag. The room was a tiny box room with a concrete bed. I just needed rest, so I didn’t care one bit. I thanked the lovely couple for helping us and tipped them very well before giving Ram a huge and meaningful hug.

I slept terrible that night but did not care. Ram suggested a lay in, but I wanted to be up and out by 7am so that we could reach the end of the trek within 4 and a half days in total. Again, this was just me wanting to push myself to the extreme, do something that others hadn’t done and have memories for life. During the night I tried to take my Nike shoes off put the pain was just agonising, so I kept them on all night.

The remaining day would be a good 8-hour trek to Jomsom which would be a test but to me, it was like the finishing path after a truly unforgettable few days. That morning was tough getting up but I forced myself out of bed by 6:30am, packed my bags before attempting what I was worried about.

I knew that taking my shoes off would be tough and that then washing, cleaning and rebandaging my wounds would be even worse but an iced cold bucket shower it was. Wow – did that wake me up.

I could not bare to put my shoes back on so decided to do the next 25 – 30 kilometres in flip flops. The sunrise was beautiful as we walked through the open valleys with a mix of greenery, iced capped mountains with a misty yet beautifully stunning morning. Many times, did I have tears in my eyes just with admiration of such beauty. The dramatic scenery I had witness in the last few days was so eye catching it was just surreal and something I never expected to be just so utterly incredible and mind blowing. That’s why I didn’t care to stop so often as just walking through it was enough for me. Being so close and amongst such pristine nature really does blow you away with such severity that I could feel my soul heightened to such a level that all my emotions were constantly being touched throughout.

14568257_10209666487551662_8028347731372059269_nIn the next main town, I went to hospital to get properly cleaned up with my heals now being that bad the I thought I would be seeing the bone in my heels. I played football with a young Nepalese boy and his Dad and soon enjoyed my first proper meal in days – Dahl Baht.

We sat in a small remote bar which was full of locals all eating Dahl Baht with their hands (as is tradition in Nepal) so I joined in myself. After 2 large beers and some sneaking some photos of these traditional eating habits, it was time to hit the dusty road through the vast valleys that led to Jomsom.

14606525_10209666492751792_4645534112518678729_nWe finally arrived at Jomsom later that afternoon and as soon as we arrived at our hotel, I just raised my 22kg backpack above my head and the feeling of elation that flew through my body was unbelievable. We had completed the 10-16-day trek in 4 days and 7 hours. The evening was spent drinking, eating and going through all the different aspects of a life changing few days. 14632862_10209698527672645_4763060114528837353_nDue to me paying Ram for the scheduled 10-16 days, Ram now had some extra time to spend with his family in Kathmandu, Nepal so all was good. I got to have more time in the third biggest city in Nepal where I planned to learn to ride a manual 250cc motorbike through the mountains of Nepal but mainly – rest was needed.

There was still to be a scare though as Jomsom airport is very well known for being the most dangerous airport in the world. Jomsom airport is right up in the mountains of the Himalayas and sits up at an altitude of 2,682 metres. The shockingly scary thing about this airport is than the runway is short. The reason why it is so short is that the runway ends at a sheer drop off that is basically a huge cliff edge. The planes that depart from here lift off just before the drop which to me is unbelievably scary but also something I have always known and wanted to do.

14610888_10209666492871795_6399517491026494143_nAt the airport my football was confiscated for no apparent reason. I then saw all the airport staff kicking the ball around in the airport so maybe they just wanted a game with it. I wasn’t bothered as both my footballs had done what I wanted which was to play football with local village children and also for one of the Guinness Worlds Record attempts.

There was still one more terrifying thing to happen though and something that I have always been petrified of happening to me.

The plane was a tiny 20 – 30 passenger plane and seeing us lift off the ground just before the sheer cliff faced drop of was adrenalin fuelled in itself but it got worse. Around 15 minutes into the flight we were in line with the tops of the mountains either side of us which was utterly beautiful but what happened next made me feel as if my heart was in my mouth.

The turbulence was a bit bad, but I could just about handle that but when the engine appeared to stop, I was not ready for that. The pilots were two young males who were clearly seen several seats in front of this tiny aircraft. Some alarm Was going off and the body language, confusion and looks on the pilots faces as well as the stewardess and passengers was penetrating. I recall just thinking “no way, have I seriously just been through all that yesterday just to die today”. 15107261_1285513688178083_8839466375072186633_nI was absolutely scared and though that this was it. I thought about my family, my friends and my life in general. I looked out the window and realised that due to the mountainous landscape, surely, they could not safely crash land. Me and Ram had gone from pulling funny selfie photos to one another to just being silent.

It appeared we were gliding as it was hard to feel or see if we were going down and you could tell download (2)the pilots were not highly trained in keeping composure as their panicked body language had us all worried. I then noticed a bit of pressure on my head and my ears popped. I could also see that we were not as high as we previously were as the mountains were not quite in line with us as they were now above us slightly.

Then, that sweet sound of the engine kicking in again made me feel a bit better but I was still scared and certainly not convinced. The pilots soon appeared more confident and it wasn’t too long until we landed. Man – it felt great to touch ground and I soon had lunch and a beer with Ram at my hotel before saying an emotional farewell to him.

I feel that there are many morals to this story. Knowing or feeling you know your limits can be vital. Having a though can be totally different to the actions that perceive that thought. Never ever, ever underestimate mother nature. Success, reward and achievement is on the other side of fear. You can do anything you put your mind to and when your body and mind is truly tested you can go into overdrive. Thinking things through rather than being stupidly impulsive in a naive way can kill you. Going through something like this with someone makes you friends for life with something never being able to touch what you experienced together. Appreciating your limits can help you in any life situation imaginable be it sport, work family or travelling.

At the end of the day, all I can do or know was that this was a deep learning curve but just feeling that deep feeling of survival and then surviving whilst exceeding so many personal and natural boundaries will always live with me. I learnt a hell of a lot on them mountains, have a friend for life and will never push such extremities. We only apparently live once in my eye and it was my life I gambled with as I knew Ram’s experience would never jeopardize him but the experience of this ticked off unbelievable expectations beyond any belief.

Here is my ABC News radio interview: My actual name is Mat Broster which is clear in the interview as Max Coltrane is my author name for libel purposes: Long story 🙂

Never do what I done but I know many may appreciate, learn from or even never touch what I done purely from what I went through so I firmly confirm that this should never be done but please just enjoy and take in my story as what it is – a true story.

A Single Step – All or Nothing

This is my first novel which will be out soon. The journey I have been on since stepping out from my hometown and Country in June 2013 is completely formidable.

This is the content from the back cover of my first novel, Stepping Out – All or Nothing.

When 29-year-old Max Coltrane decided to get out of the small English town he had lived in all his life, he made sure he did it right.

Buying a one-way ticket to Bangkok and with no real plans of what he was going to do when he got there, Max found that traveling in a foreign land, where speaking the local language wasn’t easy, was just the beginning of an epic adventure.

Through traveling in Thailand, Cambodia and Vietnam, Max faced not only the ubiquitous tourist scams, but also dangerous situations with locals, police corruption, near-stabbings and violence.

But, despite the problems he faced, Max continued with his travels and made his way to Taiwan, where he found that life doesn’t always run smoothly and can throw you a curve ball when you least expect it.

In this true story of his adventure, Max Coltrane doesn’t spare the reader anything, revelling in late night drinking dens in Vietnam, close calls with the Thai mafia and a descent which brought him close to alcoholism.

But, threaded throughout, is a marvellous story of discovery and wonder, of freedom and life experiences, making friends, learning about himself and of new cultures, history and the meaner side of life.


All the best,


Face Fears.   Travel Far.   Dream Big.

About Me

So, a little bit about me.

My name is Max Coltrane, I was born 33 years ago in a small coastal town on the Southeast coast of England, UK.

The long story short is that I have grown very well mainly from my own doing. I believe that many lives can be touched and I have certainly done that and find it deeply rewarding.

More to the point, when I left my at the time, non-existent life many years ago, I left the UK and lived in the remote rain forest of Brazil for 6 months. My Dad (who passed away when I was 17) had travelled Brazil many years prior so this has always inspired such a meaningful passion for myself to do similar.

My experience in Brazil was absolutely epic and I will be blogging all of my amazing stories on here. Brazil gave me the travel bug, badly (as well as a new language, deadly encounters, intensity, scares, freedom, rich culture, insane experiences and formidable wildlife). Brazil really did have it all.

I held on to this travel bug for a long time until enough was enough. So, at the age of 29 and with just a buckled push bike to my name, no licences, trades, promising career or degrees, I decided to up and leave again. This time though, I left with a one-way ticket (to Thailand), no real plan at all, not a great deal of money and I was fed up of my anxiety ridden life, so facing all my fears was what I wanted to do.

Facing fears is exactly what I did and I can honestly say, hand on heart that I know my life started at 29 and what has happened since leaving the UK in 2013 is nothing short of unbelievable. My book highlights this as from story to story, experience to experience it is a real page turner. Living this page turner was even more insane, but the rewards are that great I have had tears of joy, euphoria and the ultimate freedom ever imaginable.

What I have now compared to then is a whole world apart. I have easily achieved, experienced and faced abundant fears a hundred times over compared to the first 29 years of my life. I wish I had read a book like the one I have decided to write based from the raw experiences I have had since leaving the UK in 2013. Stepping Out – All or Nothing allows the reader to go through everything I have been through since leaving England in 2013 and it will not disappoint in the slightest. My book will be in three main parts.

Where I am now, is back doing what I am naturally made for which is is helping troubled youth. This time however, I am in the only place in the world where I can work with such a generation of people. The significance of my work that I love and enjoy involves the richest of culture, working with traumatised youth, developing life skills, ancient traditions and learning, as well as teaching an incredible amount.

I have been strongly advised time and time again that due to my phenomenal, mind-blowing and hard-hitting experiences that I should write a book as well as get a blogging site going so here I am. Stepping Out – All or Nothing, is being published as we speak and steppingoutmax.com will also not let you down. It will be full of fascinating stories, free tips, free advice, meaningful blogs and I am deeply passionate about sharing my story that I will put my heart and soul into an amazing novel, books and blog. My book will available to buy on all the usual sites. My mission is to inspire, get people travelling, open-minds, face fears and I can promise a great read for all ages and do not have any ambition at all to gain financially. My passion is that incredible I have spent just over 5k already on ensuring my book is handled professionally yet, I have the complete final word which is the most important thing.

Everything comes from rich, pure and raw experiences from which I have lived extensively in five completely different countries which have all had vastly different cultures.

FB_IMG_1515599071176I have so much more travelling to do yet and my plans are so big. During my time travelling to at least 30 different countries and have just added Kenya, Tanzania, Sri Lanka and UAE to the list with some incredible stories coming from Africa and Sri Lanka. I have learnt such a lot and it’s about time I shared it all.

Due to libel reasons regarding my novels that are based entirely on a true story my name Max Coltrane is my author/pseudonym name.

My name Max was the name given to me in Brazil as well as many other countries so it is a meaningful name. As for Coltrane, my Dad gave me this name as one of my middle names. John Coltrane was a famous saxophone player and my Dad’s favorite musician so the name Coltrane is also symbolic as well as  meaning a lot to me.

Thank you and enjoy my site, Max

Face Fears.   Travel Far.   Dream Big.

I Am Starting Again With My Site – Same Site – Stepping Out Max

Hey, Max here, just so any followers, viewers, subscribers, friends or family that visited my site recently and wondered why it is bare, this is due to me changing my whole approach. I am very new to blogging so I went about it all the wrong way. After some very honest feedback from some close friends it was brought to my attention that I went far too fast with my site which is so true. In just 2 weeks I had turned my meaningful travel blogging site into an online magazine, it was all over the place.


Yes, I had great content but what was I thinking?

The main reason for my blogging site is purely to inspire through my raw experience when facing fear, travelling far and dreaming big. From now on I am going to put my heart and soul into each post and draw out the very best from my travels, journey and adventure and I want to add value to all viewers. I not only want to share so much but I want to give my viewers what they want at their pace so tips, guidance, advice will be given. I will also be giving away free books to any followers and subscribers.

I feel I should start only with my travels as this is where I really have some mind-blowing stuff to share, eyes to open and heads to turn I have some truly epic stories.

My first post will be about my world records, survival story, pushing myself to the absolute extreme and defying my own physical and mental expectations. This was when I completed an intense 15 day or so walk in Nepal climbing above 5,500 metres in just 4 and a half days. I may look relaxed laying down here but this was about day 3 at 8am and I was already mentally, physically and emotionally drained.


We (me and Ram) kept walking until it was dark. This whole experience brings me chills just thinking about it and it is about time I shared it on a blog rather than my ABC News interview soon after. I was saving it only for my book but the build up, extra emotional value (which my book will lead up to, fulfil and surpass) and how it puts all the pieces of my book together will already make the story in my book even more of a page turner.

With the back ups of my live ABC News interview after breaking these records, a signed certificate of proof as well as signed statements from the trekking company I went with I can promise you my first blog will be immense. I will be transported back to the desperate time when I was up in the Himalayas ready to curl up and die but me and my guide pushed each other until we saw a light and were saved by a local man but we had made it to a safe home, finally. Altitude sickness, food poisoning, a ripped shoulder muscle, unimaginable blisters, tears and fears, it’s all in there plus more. We still had a full day’s walk after this but we finally made it in the late afternoon where I put up with the pain one last time to put my bag above my head and man, it felt good.


My second blog will take me back to when I lived in the remote rain forest of Brazil for 6-months. The night I decided to go camping deep in the jungle I had a fright that I never forget when something I fear greatly jumped on my shoulder. I was with a well known and respected snake, spider and you name it, he handles it bloke who is also from the UK, Chris Knowles. This was a night we will never forget. The jungle really does come alive at night and this night will be one me and Chris always remember and laugh about (now). From fresh puma prints, huge spiders, creatures I didn’t know existed to mammals right near me as I tried to sleep, scary sounds and I even had a painful fungal infection, what a night that was. This actual rainforest, The Atlantic Rainforest, Brazil is the 3rd most biodiverse place on the planet for wildlife. These are just a few of the photos of some of the creatures from that epic night camping in the remote rainforest.


These two introductions to my journey, path and story are the first of many so this time I will be concentrating on just one thing, Epic Travel and everything that comes with it.


I will have a nice little ‘about me,’ a sweet little ‘introduction’ about the book I have written and I will link a story from the actual book too. It was a great learning curve understanding that rushing something defeats the purpose and the real me was lost.


I am so passionate about the immense journey I have had, what it has done and what I had compared to what I now have, that my main book (launches in 4-5 months) plus my soon to be published ebooks will be completely free to followers and subscribers of steppingoutmax.com. My main book – Stepping Out – All or Nothing has cost me a fair few thousand dollars but my passion to inspire overrides any financial cost as I feel I have a great gift to give, so my site and books will certainly give an immense gift. I want to reach out, communicate with and inspire the people that purely gain from any or all of my content.